When I first got sober back in 1991 I stayed in an isolated state for about a year. I wasn’t very sociable. Yes I had friends and yes I was in a relationship. As a matter of fact, the woman I was in a relationship then is now my wife. Without her being so supportive, I don’t think that I would be where I am today.
I didn’t have much money but had enough to build a makeshift recording studio in a spare room. The studio consisted of a Tascam 16 track cassette recorder and a used sound board. I had an old fender amp and a Peavy pa head. I had invested in an Art FXR sound effects machine that consisted of about 450 programs. For instance, Chorus, Flanger and a digital delay.
What I did after that was just create. For that year I did nothing but write and record. Sometimes I would stay in that room for 12 hours at a time. In some kind of strange way this was therapy for me. I must admit that what I did give myself was the time to reflect on my life and heal my mind.
Think about it, I started drinking when I was 10 years old in 1967 and didn’t look back until 1990. I was 33 years old and a total wreck. For one full year I spent time in a program that I will cherish for the rest of my life. After all, that is what they gave me back, My Life.
On another post I will tell you just how much of a wreck I was.
I wrote this piece while in that isolated state. One day I will post the music that accompanies it.
By the way, if anyone out there has any stories about recovery or any related subject, I would love to have you as a guest writer. Just leave a comment or write me at: blogging@digitalstores.biz After all my goal is to be helpful to others and stories of self destruction are a god sent in helping to educate those who think it’s cool to obliterate themselves
Sold On A Dream
Listen to the sound in my mind
My girl by my side, so very kind
Living day by day, trying to create
Feels so good to know that she’s my loving mate
I’m sold on a dream
Nothing feels so good
Increase my self-esteem
I knew she understood
Moving day by day, pushing towards my goal
Listen to me play, I begin to rock & roll
I know that in my mind, this is where I want to be
Nothing feels so good, makes me feel so free
I’m sold on a dream
Nothing feels so good
Increase my self-esteem
I knew she understood
Listen to the sound in my mind
